have you ever unexpectedly found yourself submersed in a dream?
a dream that suddenly seems possible? and as if it were waiting for you all along?
and now it is so right, and you are so ready.
something that you may have seen or thought of hundreds of times, but now it fully reveals itself? at just the right time.
and all you can do is hold yourself still because if you don't, you will go wild with excitement?
excitement for possibility.
but then, you take a risk...you put yourself out there, and just as quickly and unexpectedly as the dream presented itself,
it's gone.
little doubts about the dream that were just fears, now seem like something to hold onto, because they make the loss of the dream easier to swallow.
and deep down you know, things weren't just "right"...
but, really, is anything ever just right?
how do you know when to listen to those whispers,
those signs that seem to be leading you somewhere,
except, really back to where you started?
what started as a sign, as something that might be your destiny, something that made your soul sing
ends as something that leaves you questioning
who you are.
who are you.
deep down
how do you know
what to listen to?
maybe those whispers that you've always trusted
are untrustworthy?
or they changed.
or you changed.
or you are changing.
and changing is ok.
but still,
you question what it is your soul is called to.
because we really are our souls,
here in this human experience.
drawn to human desires and human longings.
stifling the soul somewhat.
so you try to trust.
trust that in all authenticity
and purity
you'll be led to clarity and peace.
in sorting out the human stuff
and the soulful tenderness.
does this make any sense?
am i so shallow that i even could write this?
it's time to rest.
rest.
xo
j
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